Happy One Month Bubba...

Today my son officially turns one month and this is a huge deal. I mean, I cannot believe how quick the time flew by. Soon my son will be crawling, walking and talking... Oh boy, I better cherish these moments as much as I can. So for Nathan's first month agenda included a doctors appointment and surprisingly a lot of sleep for the both of us. I don't want to jinks it but I'm glad he is sleeping longer now a day. Its great for me. :)

So he got his second shot and I was heartbroken just watching him get it, although, he was great. He cried for a second and then he was back to normal, like nothing happened, just like his mommy. I too got a shot, my H1N1 shot and I'm actually really glad I did. I've been meaning to get it, but I still need to get my flu shot, for my son's sake, a highly recommendation from the doc. I really hope my shot has no side effects because I need all the energy I can get. I am feeling a little bit more fatigue then usual but I just need to stay positive and keep healthy as much as possible.

Well, keep on a look out for my son's One Month Baby Pics... it is coming your way. I have so much picture projects to do in such a short time. So as soon as I complete it, check out my gallery.

Good night world.

My First Entry as Momma

It is December 9, 2009 and Nathan, my son, will be one month tomorrow. After numerously feeding him and trying to get him to sleep, I finally succeeded for a few hours, well for two hours my guess. I should be sleeping as he sleeps because that's the only time I can, but I wanted to share to the world a glimpse of how life as a mom, in my perspective is...

Well let's be frank, being a mom let alone is a tough job, but as a first time mom and a single parent it really doesn't make it any easier. I can either look at it two ways, think of the negative things my son might miss out on as a single parent or think positive with confidence and know my son will get more then with or without both parents around.

My son is the most important thing and person in my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even as a single parent, I would not change my status for anything. I am a strong believer of the saying "things happen for a reason," and I do be believe its suppose to be the it is. I can only hope and trust in my faith that everything will be just fine, but I have a strong feeling it will be. I'm not worried at all.

Every time I see my son's face, every time he smiles for a quick second, my day brightens up like no other. I was fortunate enough to experience love at first sight and I am so grateful for it all.

It's been almost a month as a mommy and watching my son grow so quick is life changing. He has already changed drastically and I cannot wait to see how much progress will be coming our way.

It's been almost a month

It's 5:26 in the morning and I just finished feeding my son. I know my blog title states "It's been almost a month" but from the obvious, it's been about eight months since my last blog. As much as I wanted to update my life in a daily basis, I had a huge change in my life that was hard to state publicly. Since its already known to everyone, it was the fact that I was pregnant.

Long story short, my pregnancy was really discrete and only a few knew about it. It was a huge change in my life but in all honesty, I have no regrets. I accepted everything, as well as the consequences that came with it, but it wasn't the easiest thing. But overall, the outcome was a true blessing and I wouldn't change a thing.

My life will never be the same. I admit, being a mother will be the hardest challenge yet in my life, but seeing my son's face every single day makes it so much easier to love. My life had full of blessings, but I guarantee I have yet to see more.

November 10, 2009 at 5:38pm, my life had more meaning to it... I will always love you Nathan Jay Quilantip

Quote of the Day...

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt"

- Abraham Lincoln

My Dreamy Dream :)

Mood: Giddy

So this morning I woke up with a big smile laughing... I think I had the best dream in such a long time. I know its kind of funny and all but my dream was all about RP(Bobby) and SB(Sammy). It was amazing. Okay people, don't get carried away, nothing raunchy happened okay, it was just pure fun and comedy.

Okay, how do I start even describing my dream. I can't really pinpoint a location but I remember walking in a neighborhood where there was a big building - kind of like a Church-like building but not. I was on the front staircase and there was a lot of people crowding around. At first I saw James Lafferty from OTH. He was with a couple people and just talking. To me, everyone was just normal people so no fuss or anything. So anyway, I was just wandering around and looking at all the fuss why there was people everywhere. To be honest, I still have no idea why but there was all of a sudden a wedding that was going on, so I figured, maybe that was it. But I doubt it.

So in my dream, it changed location and I ended up in this somewhat open room and people were dancing and partying, but nothing to rowdy. I know talking about my dream seems so short but it was actually longer than it sounds. So I was walking around and I noticed two guys which blew my mind. It was Bobby and Sammy. I was utterly shocked but the same time I felt like I knew them (in my dream of course). So I went up to them casually and said hi to them and hugged them. They were drinking, socializing and dancing a bit. Sammy was sweet as ever. Always having that adorable smile of his and Bobby had the sexy seductive look as always - it always melts your heart... It's to die for. LOL ok ok enough about that..

So when I went to approach them, we started talking about everything... music, what's new, everything that came in mind. It was sooo amazing, it was like they were one of my friends and I wasn't all googalie crazy, which I know I'd be if I ever meet them in reality hahahah. (I feel somewhat dorky just writing about it, but I really don't want to forget the moments lol) So I was holding myself back as always, just conversing with Bobby and Sammy throughout the night. Sammy was more friendlier and socializing with me more than Bobby so I was enjoying his company. He was such a sweetheart, I don't think I can overreact on that because he was :)

Well, the place was packed and everyone was partying so we hit the dance floor and started busting out our moves. I have to admit, I got a little freaky with the both of them, but I don't regret doing it. LOL it was a fun moment. But for some strange reason, I can clearly remember Sammy's momenta more than Bobby's, I don't know, maybe its selective memory at this point. I spent more time dancing with Sammy and conversing more and more throughout the night. It felt like we were at the party scene for a long time, so suddenly, the environment changed and we were outside in a more quiet environment. Sammy & I were just flirting with each other throughout the time and I got to talk to Bobby more later on the night. We were being very humorous with each other but even in my dream, Bobby was as famous as he is in reality. Weird. Lol.

Okay so next scene gets a little bit too cozy, we suddenly were all in a room on a huge bed ready about to call it a night. There was actually four of us in this huge bed but I can't remember the fourth person. Don't worry, nothing freaky happened people, it was all innocent but I think I got some cuddling moments with Sammy (lol blushing), and the weird part is, it suddenly changed to Bobby. You know how dreams go, it changes in a split second, but hey I am not complaining. I can't really remember much because it happened so quick but I remember still laughing and conversing on the bed. Bobby was a bit irritated because I think Sammy & I were being a bit loud, lol, but we just kept laughing. I remember closing my eyes and sleeping but I awoken suddenly and we were in church like building all of a sudden.

Bobby was being kind of serious. We walked in the room filled with students and a speaker. There was like a church service going on or some sort of class. I wasn't quite sure what the lecture was about but it seemed interesting. Bobby was all into it. Sammy was outside the building, so I decided to hang out with him for a bit. As soon as I ran out of the doors, I spotted him and ran to him with so much excitement. I actually jumped on him. LOL. I told him to promise to take a picture with me and he said of course. :) He was the sweetest. He was so nice and charming throughout the whole time we were talking. I couldn't stop blushing when I was around him. He said "whatever you want Czar." I love those words, well coming from him.

So when we were talking, ironically two friends from high school walked out the building and started to talk to us. Lets call her Moe. She told me she heard a rumor going around that I was pregnant. I was a bit shock but I endured it. I calmly responded back to her and we continued our conversation. She and her friend were waiting for their ride and strangely it was my brother who picked them up. I found that really disturbing, well only because they don't know each other in real life so it was weird.

Anyway, my dream didn't last long after this scene. Sammy & I went back in to meet up with Bobby and we stayed in the building listening to the lecture for the rest of my dream. We were participating with the lecture, answering and talking to everybody but all I can remember was fooling around with Bobby and Sammy then... alarm clock went off...

My dream actually more exciting that it sounds. Writing about it will just help me remember the moments but at this point I don't' think I can forget it in my head... Well, not anytime soon ;)