Happy One Month Bubba...

Today my son officially turns one month and this is a huge deal. I mean, I cannot believe how quick the time flew by. Soon my son will be crawling, walking and talking... Oh boy, I better cherish these moments as much as I can. So for Nathan's first month agenda included a doctors appointment and surprisingly a lot of sleep for the both of us. I don't want to jinks it but I'm glad he is sleeping longer now a day. Its great for me. :)

So he got his second shot and I was heartbroken just watching him get it, although, he was great. He cried for a second and then he was back to normal, like nothing happened, just like his mommy. I too got a shot, my H1N1 shot and I'm actually really glad I did. I've been meaning to get it, but I still need to get my flu shot, for my son's sake, a highly recommendation from the doc. I really hope my shot has no side effects because I need all the energy I can get. I am feeling a little bit more fatigue then usual but I just need to stay positive and keep healthy as much as possible.

Well, keep on a look out for my son's One Month Baby Pics... it is coming your way. I have so much picture projects to do in such a short time. So as soon as I complete it, check out my gallery.

Good night world.

My First Entry as Momma

It is December 9, 2009 and Nathan, my son, will be one month tomorrow. After numerously feeding him and trying to get him to sleep, I finally succeeded for a few hours, well for two hours my guess. I should be sleeping as he sleeps because that's the only time I can, but I wanted to share to the world a glimpse of how life as a mom, in my perspective is...

Well let's be frank, being a mom let alone is a tough job, but as a first time mom and a single parent it really doesn't make it any easier. I can either look at it two ways, think of the negative things my son might miss out on as a single parent or think positive with confidence and know my son will get more then with or without both parents around.

My son is the most important thing and person in my life and I wouldn't have it any other way. Even as a single parent, I would not change my status for anything. I am a strong believer of the saying "things happen for a reason," and I do be believe its suppose to be the it is. I can only hope and trust in my faith that everything will be just fine, but I have a strong feeling it will be. I'm not worried at all.

Every time I see my son's face, every time he smiles for a quick second, my day brightens up like no other. I was fortunate enough to experience love at first sight and I am so grateful for it all.

It's been almost a month as a mommy and watching my son grow so quick is life changing. He has already changed drastically and I cannot wait to see how much progress will be coming our way.

It's been almost a month

It's 5:26 in the morning and I just finished feeding my son. I know my blog title states "It's been almost a month" but from the obvious, it's been about eight months since my last blog. As much as I wanted to update my life in a daily basis, I had a huge change in my life that was hard to state publicly. Since its already known to everyone, it was the fact that I was pregnant.

Long story short, my pregnancy was really discrete and only a few knew about it. It was a huge change in my life but in all honesty, I have no regrets. I accepted everything, as well as the consequences that came with it, but it wasn't the easiest thing. But overall, the outcome was a true blessing and I wouldn't change a thing.

My life will never be the same. I admit, being a mother will be the hardest challenge yet in my life, but seeing my son's face every single day makes it so much easier to love. My life had full of blessings, but I guarantee I have yet to see more.

November 10, 2009 at 5:38pm, my life had more meaning to it... I will always love you Nathan Jay Quilantip

Quote of the Day...

"Better to remain silent and be thought a fool than to speak out and remove all doubt"

- Abraham Lincoln

My Dreamy Dream :)

Mood: Giddy

So this morning I woke up with a big smile laughing... I think I had the best dream in such a long time. I know its kind of funny and all but my dream was all about RP(Bobby) and SB(Sammy). It was amazing. Okay people, don't get carried away, nothing raunchy happened okay, it was just pure fun and comedy.

Okay, how do I start even describing my dream. I can't really pinpoint a location but I remember walking in a neighborhood where there was a big building - kind of like a Church-like building but not. I was on the front staircase and there was a lot of people crowding around. At first I saw James Lafferty from OTH. He was with a couple people and just talking. To me, everyone was just normal people so no fuss or anything. So anyway, I was just wandering around and looking at all the fuss why there was people everywhere. To be honest, I still have no idea why but there was all of a sudden a wedding that was going on, so I figured, maybe that was it. But I doubt it.

So in my dream, it changed location and I ended up in this somewhat open room and people were dancing and partying, but nothing to rowdy. I know talking about my dream seems so short but it was actually longer than it sounds. So I was walking around and I noticed two guys which blew my mind. It was Bobby and Sammy. I was utterly shocked but the same time I felt like I knew them (in my dream of course). So I went up to them casually and said hi to them and hugged them. They were drinking, socializing and dancing a bit. Sammy was sweet as ever. Always having that adorable smile of his and Bobby had the sexy seductive look as always - it always melts your heart... It's to die for. LOL ok ok enough about that..

So when I went to approach them, we started talking about everything... music, what's new, everything that came in mind. It was sooo amazing, it was like they were one of my friends and I wasn't all googalie crazy, which I know I'd be if I ever meet them in reality hahahah. (I feel somewhat dorky just writing about it, but I really don't want to forget the moments lol) So I was holding myself back as always, just conversing with Bobby and Sammy throughout the night. Sammy was more friendlier and socializing with me more than Bobby so I was enjoying his company. He was such a sweetheart, I don't think I can overreact on that because he was :)

Well, the place was packed and everyone was partying so we hit the dance floor and started busting out our moves. I have to admit, I got a little freaky with the both of them, but I don't regret doing it. LOL it was a fun moment. But for some strange reason, I can clearly remember Sammy's momenta more than Bobby's, I don't know, maybe its selective memory at this point. I spent more time dancing with Sammy and conversing more and more throughout the night. It felt like we were at the party scene for a long time, so suddenly, the environment changed and we were outside in a more quiet environment. Sammy & I were just flirting with each other throughout the time and I got to talk to Bobby more later on the night. We were being very humorous with each other but even in my dream, Bobby was as famous as he is in reality. Weird. Lol.

Okay so next scene gets a little bit too cozy, we suddenly were all in a room on a huge bed ready about to call it a night. There was actually four of us in this huge bed but I can't remember the fourth person. Don't worry, nothing freaky happened people, it was all innocent but I think I got some cuddling moments with Sammy (lol blushing), and the weird part is, it suddenly changed to Bobby. You know how dreams go, it changes in a split second, but hey I am not complaining. I can't really remember much because it happened so quick but I remember still laughing and conversing on the bed. Bobby was a bit irritated because I think Sammy & I were being a bit loud, lol, but we just kept laughing. I remember closing my eyes and sleeping but I awoken suddenly and we were in church like building all of a sudden.

Bobby was being kind of serious. We walked in the room filled with students and a speaker. There was like a church service going on or some sort of class. I wasn't quite sure what the lecture was about but it seemed interesting. Bobby was all into it. Sammy was outside the building, so I decided to hang out with him for a bit. As soon as I ran out of the doors, I spotted him and ran to him with so much excitement. I actually jumped on him. LOL. I told him to promise to take a picture with me and he said of course. :) He was the sweetest. He was so nice and charming throughout the whole time we were talking. I couldn't stop blushing when I was around him. He said "whatever you want Czar." I love those words, well coming from him.

So when we were talking, ironically two friends from high school walked out the building and started to talk to us. Lets call her Moe. She told me she heard a rumor going around that I was pregnant. I was a bit shock but I endured it. I calmly responded back to her and we continued our conversation. She and her friend were waiting for their ride and strangely it was my brother who picked them up. I found that really disturbing, well only because they don't know each other in real life so it was weird.

Anyway, my dream didn't last long after this scene. Sammy & I went back in to meet up with Bobby and we stayed in the building listening to the lecture for the rest of my dream. We were participating with the lecture, answering and talking to everybody but all I can remember was fooling around with Bobby and Sammy then... alarm clock went off...

My dream actually more exciting that it sounds. Writing about it will just help me remember the moments but at this point I don't' think I can forget it in my head... Well, not anytime soon ;)

The Hardest Part is Over.

Mood: Relieved
Listening: "Too Far Gone" by Sam Bradley
Watching: "Dominck Dunes"
Where: Room

So as most of "my" readers here know what's been going on with me lately... Its been such a roller coaster ride with me now a day especially with all the symptoms I've been having. Its been taking a toll on me but I've manage to accept how I should and will be feeling for the next couple months.

I know I've been quite secretive about my personal issues, I mean why blog about it if I don't even state the facts? But no, it feels good to be able to write about my feelings on it even though I don't clearly state my conditions.

So what's the hardest part about it all? Well besides accepting my fate and my future, right now, the hardest part was breaking the news to those who matter the most to me. Besides my family being the only opinions that really matter to me, I found it hard telling my best friend Ted. Sigh. It was so hard. But! I did it and I feel relief but I know he is disappointed the same time. I really don't know how to feel about his reaction but I know give it a few days, things will be normal like nothing new ever happen. I really can't blame him for how he reacted or anyone in that matter. But there's one thing I know and that's having GREAT family and friends around. I'm so blessed to be surrounded by warm hearted people and very supportive in that matter.

Despite the situation I'm in, I know I will have people that will support me and that will be there for me no matter what and until the end of this. I'm just glad almost everyone that is important to me knows my situation, well almost everyone. I still have a few more people to inform but I know the hardest ones are over. I'm glad.

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My Successful Rice Dish Gathering & Horror Movie Night

So it's pretty late and I just finished cleaning up the kitchen and storing all the food we ate tonight. I had a great time and enjoyed eating rice again. Lent is officially over and no more limits!!! I enjoyed every bite I had and not to mention the cookies I baked!!! I made sure it had extra chocolate chip cookies in it :) Plus my friends loved it as well. Its been awhile since I cooked for my friends due to the limitations of dishes I can cook but tonight I went all out and have lots of left overs, but I am not complaining.

So what consists of my yummy dinner tonight? I figured soupie rice dishes and of course the infamous beef pattie dish ALL my friends seem to LOVE. So I started cooking 3 o'clock sharp and ended roughly around almost 6-ish, actually even before 6. So my first dish was Pork Adobo. I whipped it up pretty fast and was a bit amazed how fast it was, lol, frankly I was too. Second dish was Chicken Curry. Oh how I've been craving for curry forever. lol. Siigh. I mean you can't eat curry w/o rice. While I was cooking it, my friend was already hungry. I figured we start cooking the rice because we had to make two batches, thanks to my small rice cooker. And lastly, I cooked of course my beef pattie dish. I prepped it pretty quick and simultaneously we were cleaning up, so we were ready to set the table. BUT of course, we can't have a main course without desert, and that's were my infamous fresh baked extra chocolate cookies come in. I made sure I treat my guests with extra sweet treats!!! They all deserved it, uhm me included! :)

It was a team effort and the night went great. Our horror movie list consist of "1408," "The Exorcist of Emily Rose," and "Amityville Horror," but we didn't get to watch the last movie. I guess we have to save that for later. :) I think two movies was good enough, plus "The Exorcist of Emily Rose" was pretty freaky, so I think everyone was pretty shaken up. I don't blame them. lol

Well, I'm beat, I'm FULL, thanks to the rice and desert. So I better get some rest so I can enjoy what's left of Easter Sunday. I want to wish everyone a wonderful and safe Happy Easter!!! I had a great Pre-Easter day, thank you friends. :) I love you guys!!!

Lent Coming to an End...

Today is Good Friday and I am at work. I really wanted to pass by church today but I really don't think I will have time. I will do my best to go tomorrow, I just hope I wont have any chaotic plans during the time of mass. This lent was a pretty success despite my lack of church attendance. :( I'm so sorry about that. I really feel terrible, but sleeping seems like the only think I can do now a day. But personally, I am so glad the 40 days/nights is coming to an end because I don't think I can stand another week without eating rice nor rice dishes. It's definitely torture. Sacrificing is hard especially if its something that is so natural to you. Don't you agree? I cannot believe I managed to stay away from rice for almost 50 days, it's insane. I'm not too worried about chocolate since I shouldn't be eating it right now anyway. I should really stay away from sweets even though sometimes I extremely crave for it. But I don't know, lately chocolate hasn't been too much of a torture which is surprising for me considering the fact that I have a sweet tooth. I'm proud of myself about that. :) Its a bigger deal then it sounds people. I can eat a whole pound of chocolate!!! LOL not that I ever did.

Anyway, I'm glad I stayed as strong as I did. Next year, I wonder what I'll do, but based on this, I'm sure sky is the limits :)

Happy Good Friday everyone and Have a wonderful Easter Weekend!!! Be safe.

Sam Bradley is "going" to be in the HOUSE!

So Sam Bradley posted on his myspace just recent his new Tour Dates, and guess what??? He will definitely be jamming in LA!!! Yay!!! not once show but three shows!!! How awesome is that? Ok, I know you may not know him at all but he's definitely a musician you want to keep your eyes on. A Rising star is the best way to describe him. His lyrics rock and so far his performance are a success. I really can't wait to watch him perform. If interested, check out his myspace at http://www.myspace.com/sambradley06.

His LA Tour dates are the following:
May 25 2009
9:00P
Hotel Cafe + 21
Los Angels, California
May 26 2009
9:00P
Hotel Cafe + 21
Los Angeles, California
Jun 5 2009
8:15P
Whisky a Go Go - All ages show
Los Angeles, California

I really want to catch all three but for now, my eyes are targeting for his 26th performance :) I have to add, isn't he's adorable ?! lol...

Back To My Music Roots

So last night was day 1 for guitar lessons again and man oh man, what can I say it was hard! I know I haven't been practicing lately but lessons are definitely intense. I need to extremely practice this week and not to mention, we have a lot of homework. I really want to do good and learn more knowledge but I have to push myself. It is amazing how intense lessons will be. To be honest, I am a bit intimidated. My class is two times bigger than beginners class and there are people who are definitely bringing their game on, meaning, I need to step up.

I guess I'm just scared to be left behind or just don't simply can't get it. My fingers are still not stretching enough to get where I want to be. I always say my fingers are small and to be honest, I still do but I hope the finger stretching exercises does improve my performance. I can't give up, I won't. So wish me luck and stay tune...

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In other news, I had an awesome dinner with my girlfriends tonight. It was really sweet. I cooked macaroni soup, Tiff ordered pizza, Ethel brought guacamole and chips (yummy) and Sheila brought KFC finger food and drinks... All so yummy. I was full! I don't think I've eaten that much and good in a long long time. lol But overall, we had a great conversation and our dinner was a success as always. What can I say, my girl friends are amazing! :) Thank you girls, I love you!!!

Sluggish Weekend

So I started my weekend pretty unproductive but honestly speaking, with my conditions it was the best thing to do... and that was SLEEP. I tried my best to push myself to go out and I had to. The good thing about this weekend was that I got to watch two movies I really wanted to watch. Saturday night, me & my friend Cyndy went to watch "Adventureland." I actually really liked it. I'm a fan of the whole 80's genre. It was a cute & humorous movie. The movie had comedy, drama, a love story, and was definitely corny in so many was, but good corny. :) If you are digging the 80's definitely check it out. It brought me back to my childhood years.

The coolest thing about Saturday night was that I got to see an old friend from VA. Finally! I passed by my friend Mark's house for a little bbq & even some rock band session. I was a bit tired because I'm quite use to staying up so late now a day but I was a trooper and even stayed up until about 4 am watching a movie on tv w/ my friend. It was a busy Saturday night.

I was able to rest up again on Sunday but I was again invited to go and watch a movie. I finally got to watch "Haunting in Connecticut." It wasn't as horrific as I thought but it was a good movie. I think my friends like watching horror movies with me because I am so calm when it comes to them. What can I say, i think I covered horror movies pretty well. I mean come on, besides sappy romance movies, horror movies are my favorite.

I'm having a Niece

So I just got the text from my older sister... Looks like she is having a baby girl. :) Baby Kristen it is! I knew it!!! What can I say, I think I just have the feeling. But I'm happy for my sister. She's going to be a great mother. Although, even though she craved for a little boy, I think she'll have a great time dressing up her little girl. Can't wait to meet her. August 27 is the day, so that will be a great day for all of us.

I know I know, it seems like a far way from now but can you believe its already April. That's pretty crazy. I really hope this will be a great month. Lent is almost over... so you know what that means, Rice & Chocolate here I come. Lol I can't believe I managed to avoid eating rice and chocolate for this long... like I mention before you guys rice & chocolate is like water to me, hehehe. It's totally second nature. So April 11 is day one for no more limits, not to mention, my daddy's birthday. :)

Well, what I'm also looking forward to is watching Bobby Long's show at Hotel Cafe, it's going to be a great show. But its too early for that right now... let's focus one day at a time right. lol Hopefully I get to add more shows to watch in the near near future... let's hope so!

Can't Wait...

So it's been over a month I think from my last guitar class & I must say, I am missing it so much. I try and push myself so hard to learn more but w/o any guidance, it's a bit challenging to know you if you are doing it right or not. lol But I don't have to wait no longer... :) Next week Tuesday will be my first guitar session again w/ my last instructor... you know what that means, I need to practice and sharpen up my chords and finger transition. Well, not that I haven't been but its been hard lately, especially considering the circumstances w/ my condition... but I won't let that stop me from being able to play the guitar well...

I think all I need is passion. I'm sure if passion is involve, I really can't go wrong. I've been watching bands and trying to find more bands to watch... They are very inspiring, they make you want to learn. Even though I'm 25 and a bit late to learn, i believe its never too late to learn right? After guitar, I really want to learn how to play the piano... I have a whole life time to learn but my crave for it is getting stronger by the days...

Stay tuned...

My Addiction...

So today I yapped and yapped to a good friend about a crush I had w/ this one celebrity boy... lol What can I say, I think I have a bit too much time in my hands. But she made me realize that growing up has its disadvantages... Do you remember the times when we were younger, around young teenage years where we can just be silly & goofy and admire people you know you can never be with nor even meet? But during those times, we were able to fantasize and have a little fun with it. I know my dorky phase will eventually fade away but I'm enjoying the moment.

My friends who know of my somewhat dorky addiction teases me but I find it entertaining. lol Call me crazy but its hard to find something we adults can fantasize about now a day. I know it sounds silly but its get me by the day and what matters is that it brings a smile to my face :) and that's all that I yearn for.

But since I am in the topic of addiction, there is one thing I did start craving for again... and that's the crave to learn more on guitar. Since my last class I have been putting guitar aside and just didn't have much of the push like I use to at the beginning, but lately my passion is slowly coming back. More and more I crave to learn more on how to better myself in the guitar.

Just last night, I practiced some of the songs I learned and even though I haven't gotten it down as much as I hope I should have at this point. But I refuse to stop learning. I will learn how to play the guitar and I will look back and think of moments like these and be proud of myself that I didn't quit learning I always wanted to learn.

One of my main goal is to write a song and play it on the guitar and perform it to my family and friends. :)

Current songs learning/practicing: "Anyone Else But You" (Fr Juno), "Flightless Bird American Mouth" by Iron and Wine, "Officially Missing You" by Tamia, "Brown Eyed Girl" & more...

Appointment # A LOT...

So it is Monday once again, my least favorite day of the week and work is a drag as usual. Its less than an hour to 12 and I should be getting this done because I have yet another doctor's appointment. This is somewhat getting a bit ridiculous because I don't think I have never gone to a doctor's office this much in my life. I know its a good thing that I am but it can be a drag... I mean who likes going to the doctor, it's a bit nerve-wrecking & somewhat draggy. Oh well...

I bet you all are guessing why I have to go to the doctor so much, that will probably be in a whole other blog, I don't think I'm ready to publicly announce it, but everyone is entitled to have their opinions & guess. Well, I just hope today won't be as bad... in terms of how I feel and how the days go.

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Just got back from the doc's office & I am feeling mighty sick. I really hate feeling like this. Its the worst feeling ever. I just hope this feeling goes away real soon, even though I highly doubt it. I cannot function well in these conditions, it's simply terrible. But I will surely keep my head up and hope that my conditions get better by the hour. Looking at the bright side... Work is almost done and Monday Syndrome is almost over!!! Just want to go home already... siigh.

"How To Be" starring Rob Pattinson

"How To Be" starring Robert Pattinson, what can I say, it was extremely entertaining, in which I enjoyed every moment of the movie. I was fortunate to attend the SOLD OUT screening of "How To Be" directed by Oliver Irving at the Burbank International Film Festival this past Saturday. I arrived a few hours early due to the high demand of cravings to see Rob Pattinson light up the screen once again. I knew seating might be a problem, so I made sure I got a good seat. This time, aside from his familiar strong and heart melting character he plays in Twilight, Rob brought a more depressing-dramatic and somewhat comedic aura to the film. It was like you just wanted to feel sorry for his character, but adored him for his full heart.

The synopsis of the film:

"A wry coming-of-age comedy about twenty-something Art (Robert Pattinson) who gets dumped by his girlfriend, moves back in with his parents and hits a quarter-life crisis. Art uses inheritance money to indulge in retail and new age therapies only to end up enlisting the help of an eccentric self-help guru, Dr. Ellington (Powell Jones). Arts painfully funny journey to define his existence brings to the fore the dysfunctional relationship he has with his parents and the importance in his life of his odd-ball friends. How To Be is a timely look at increasingly common phenomena: grown-up children living at home, frustrated creativity and self-help. "

The appropriate reactions were reacted, people screamed once Rob's picture was visible on the screen, people laughed during the comedic scenes and people "aaawwed" when Rob's character Art faced various depressing and humiliating scenes. The movie presented different emotions, and the audience seem to react with great interest, not to mention a round of applause as soon as the movie ended.

Personally, I loved the movie, not mainly because it starred Rob but because he brought realistic emotions to the movie and did a really great job playing his character Art. Even though everyone is probably so use to seeing Rob as a heart throb vampire, who I can honestly say captured every Girl's heart who longs to find a man that portrays Edward, he did a phenomenal job with his character in this movie. I don't think there is nothing he can't do. He is a great actor and I can't wait to watch his dorky-like character again. To be honest, I adored his character and don't mind watching him portray somewhat a geeky, helpless, and depressing character. Overall, round of applause. And to lastly add on, not only did we see a different side of Rob but in bonus, we got to see him do what he also loves to do, and that's play music. I never knew he can play the harmonica too... I'm telling you, there is simply nothing he can't do. :) Good Job Rob!

A Friends Visit

So besides my best friend celebrating her 26th Birthday, a friend I haven't seen for over 4 years is visiting LA for 2 weeks. I can't wait to see him. It's been obviously long. I can't believe how fast its been since I last saw him. Crazy!!! Well, no intense plans really. Actually he did have plans to go to Santa Barbara, but unfortunately it was cancelled with very last minute notice.

Anyway, my ideal weekend plans is just to get my Twilight DVD and watch it throughout the weekend... ALL weekend LOL. I don't mind just doing that. I'm sure I will get tired of the DVD but I want to savor the moment hahaha. Lots happening this weekend again but idk if I want to really do anything. I'm still debating. I will see how things go. A friend invited me to go to house party tonight so perhaps I'll go. We will see how I feel. I feel kind of tired... - Whats new really? I've been exhausted lately... but no surprise there, its highly expected.

I do hope I do get to see my Kai (my friend I haven't seen forever). I really miss him and hope to hang out with him while he is here in town. It sucks I'm not quite in the mood but hopefully next week will be much better. I need to catch up on some reading b/c I am falling behind my books. I am surprised how out of focus I am lately on my reading. I need to focus!! FOCUS Czar!

Well, TGIF and hope my weekend isn't as drama as it can possible be... Wish me luck.. I am in for a real treat. Tell you all about it when it's finally out. Have a great weekend everyone!

Decisions Decisions

So this past week has been a bit overwhelming for me. Lots have happened and changed drastically, but I think I will be okay. I have to make so many changes starting now and who would have thought? I will be faced with so many craziness, I really don't know how things will end up. I do believe at the end, i will know every stressing moment I am having right now and will have will be worth it all. I can't stress enough how things are getting insane by the days go so I hope I will stay focus and be able to handle every obstacle coming my way...

At the brighter note, I have locked myself in my room almost all weekend and watched more movies. I think next week will be a bit chaotic so I wanted to relax as much as I want. I am expecting a visit from a long time friend and suppose to go to Santa Barbara for a high school reunion. So I don't know how that will go. I am not quite sure if I will go though because I am a bit short in cash. I really need to start saving. I promised myself NO spending after my VA trip, so I should really stick with that plan.

At any rate, I still need to post more pictures up from my trip and previous events since November...so I really need to start working on them.. sigh, its going to take a LOOONG time.
Good luck in that :P lol

Reality is biting me in the butt...

So it's mid-week already, a week when I left to VA. Unbelievable. I cannot believe how fast the time went. I am sadden that my mini vacation flew by so quick. I haven't gotten time to blog about my VA trip, but it is coming. But I wanted to blog about my last 3 days back to work... one word - "INSANE!" It has been crazy the last couple of days, not to mention, I am still trying to catch up with some sleep. I am extremely lacking it.

I will be having a crazy crazy week... I am not looking forward to it... but the same time, I am... lol you know what i mean ;P But my weekend starts early. I am going out tonight with a friend I haven't seen in a while to Viper Room for a Hiphop CD release and to Foxtail Club @ Hollywood for a birthday party. I do not know any of these people so it'll be a new scene. I'm excited but the same time tired. But I am game. Life is short right.

----- So I actually just got back home & had a great time. The Mateo's CD release party went great. I have to add, he was good. I'm glad I'm being more attentive to musicians -- catchy ones I have to add. Oh, I meet a couple nice people which made the night even more worth it. Despite me feeling a bit woozy, the night went great. Had a beer, great company whom I haven't seen since last year, got to dance for a bit & met nice people, I would say the night was a good night. I needed it badly lol :)

I have to add, I'm glad I finally went to AREA night club. It was actually really nice. The crowd was good, very attracting people - WOW... But I had to remember, it was Wednesday & I still need to get some rest, so rest is waiting for me. I just hope today will be a less stressing day than the last couple days.... The last thing I need is to looked so stressed out, like the image lol :) I'll keep you posted.

Night at Norfolk

So it's my first night at Va and it's a great feeling. Before I mention what I'm doing, my flight was pretty good. Got great seats, window :). My flight was a bit delayed, but otherwise, it was good. I was soo hungry but as soon as I got to the house, I got the royal treatment of "mom's-like" cooking. Despite I still can't eat rice, I had asparagus & spinach as an alternative. It was good.

I am trying to go online to do some work, but no internet available yet. So that leaves me to read my book. I am almost done so I get to start my new book. I can't wait. Well, I will update you more, but I need to get some sleep. Night night for now.

East Coast, Here I Come

So it's 10:26am and I have about and hour & a half more before I head home and get ready to head to the airport. Work is chaotic as usual. I decided to step up the plate and take charge with a project that is well over due. Too bad I won't be here for the rest of the week to work on it, but I will be good and work on it when I'm at VA, it's the least I can do... Work... wow.

Other than work, I am pretty packed and ready. I made sure I wrote a list of things that I need to remind myself to bring, lol, I tend to forget a thing or two on my trips - it's natural. Good news is, I heard the weather is so much better there than here in So Cal, but it will be still pretty cold- yikes!

12:53pm - Going nuts. Work held me back as always. They really need to learn how to be more prompt, otherwise they're great! lol. I am eating a small meal... about to get ready and out the door to Burbank AP.. I'll update you all as soon as I get to VA... I wish everyone a wonderful CA week!!!

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The Day Before My Departure

So after backing away from my social life, I finally acquainted myself with a friend I haven't been conversing with for a few days. I was a bit relief that I was able to vent out on how I felt about our previous vendetta that occur ed last week... I guess I was disappointed on how the outcome ended up but I have to consider that "things do happen for a reason." I'm glad I have care-free friends to remind me that. I realize after accepting the fact that my master plans wouldn't go the way I planned, what bothered me more was that I have been looking at the negative side of things lately. It really saddens me that the negativity is getting on my skin.

I'm actually glad I am taking this trip by myself. This will give me time to relax with no distraction and enjoy myself with family and friends I haven't seen in ages. Despite if I don't end up doing anything, I think it'll still be great. I think getting away from LA, most especially California will do good for me. Hopefully, when I get back, things will fall in place and I will be more than focus then ever. I don't know what it is... I hope when it comes down to it, I'm not just bored. lol that would be really funny, in a bad way.

So my plan when I get back to LA was to go get lunch with my little cousin, but I just extended my flight for a few more hours. That being said... I will get dinner instead of lunch with my cousin... and my plan is to get dinner at "Pigs and Whistles" Hollywood, Ca. I'm actually excited to see how that place is. I've been wanting to go there for awhile now, & who better person to go with then my 20 yr old cousin... That means I get to enjoy a beer or two :P

Well, its' almost 7:30 and I still have so much to do. On my agenda, laundry, pack, work & pack!!! Unfortunately, I still have no idea what to bring, wear & did I mention BRING!!!!

Change of Plans

So bad news keeps coming my way... yes, it may be a bit silly but its pretty frustrating when all the bad news are coming all at one time. Despite all the negative vibes I am getting, I am trying to look at the brighter side of it all. Yes my trip partner has cancelled on me, but I made a decision and I am keeping my east coast trip and going by myself. I think I can do it. It's been awhile since I've seen my family at Virginia and it would be great to see how everyone is...

So its set.

Let's hope things get better, not just for me, but for everyone else... feedback coming up.

I Wish Tonight was Tuesday Night...

Despite my Wednesday night not being as exciting as my Tuesday night, I do enjoy a nice quiet evening by myself watching a sweet movie that makes you feel that there is hope for greater things in life than you can imagine, a classic book that makes your mind wonder and allowing you to pretend to be the characters in the book and a short sessions of guitar practice, which can make you feel like a rock star for moment. Well, that definitely sums up what I do most of my nights to say the least, but I must say, I truly enjoy it.
I do have my random nights filled with some treats... and last night in particular was definitely one of those nights. I got to watch one of my favorite local bands perform last night at Molly Malone's Irish Pub in LA. Bruno Mars... what can I say... I love music & Bruno Mars is music to my ears. Never leaving their fans disappointed, they rocked the house last night, & I can't seem to get enough of them. A sweet mixture of R&B, alternative & a little bit of Reggae... What else can you ask for. With a voice like Bruno Mars, you are only left wanting more.
Bruno Mars, a Half Filipino-Half Black... absolutely talented musician. I am utterly shocked that him and his band isn't as big as they should be, but I'm so sure, only in time, I won't be surprised. I have to say, I am so glad I am getting into bands and actually going out and watching them. I can't wait for the next performance... so far, the bands I've chosen to watch are extremely awesome!

Next Performance: Blackcowboys @ Molly Malones, Friday February 27, 2009 @ 10 pm

Ash Wednesday... Went South...

Ash Wednesday, first day of lent... let the fasting begin. I was able to squeeze in church this afternoon to receive the ashes that represent "Ash Wednesday." From what I learned from the priest's homily today was that, ashes represent us when we pass away... we eventually will become ashes..."Remember (O man) that you are dust, and to dust you shall return." It really felt good going to church... it made me realize how refresh I feel every time i step out from Church. Although, other then starting Lent fresh, unfortunately the day fell through the cracks.

A few disappointments came crashing my way and one of those involved my east coast trip. My trip buddy cancelled on me less than 2 hours ago, so that leaves me no choice but to cancel. I'm having mixed emotions from disappointments, sad, angry, stressed and somewhat not surprised. To be honest, I felt like my trip was just too good to be true to follow through. I just want to set goals & follow through them. There are so many things in life I want to do, accomplish and experience... & being one step closer to one of those moments felt so great... but now I am three steps further from it.

A part of me just wants to get up and go.. with or without company, but financially, I'm just not ready to do that. I really hope, one day I will get to prove myself that I have it in me to be that adventurous, at this point, only time will tell... But at this point & I am disappointed to say, round two isn't going to happen for me.

Day before Lent

So today I start my first blog in here, thanks to Weng... It's the day before lent and I am really trying hard to be strong this lent and stick with what I tend to sacrifice. I finally narrowed three things I want to give up and they are: Chocolate (Candy in general), Rice & Shopping. I believe all of them will be quite a challenge because for starters, I have a sweet tooth, second, I'm Filipino... Rice is like water (lol) & third, what's a girl to do if she can't SHOP!!! Yikes. The fasting begins and we will see how dedicated I will be. To add on, I also sacrifice "laziness," (lol) in other words, I have to stay productive, active and busy. I plan to start my training for the mud run simultaneously. It will be a great push!

This year, I feel really different about myself. I feel more control, focus and confident. I can honestly say that I think I can do this. Yes the choices I made doesn't sound extreme, but to give up things that are pretty second hand is going to be a challenge. I have yet to prove self control and follow through on my goals. I think this is the main goal for Lent. I will keep you posted on how I am doing. I only hope for support and encouragement.

Okay... in other news, I finally spoke to my bff again. Its been awhile since I had a conversation with her. I'm glad she is doing good and is focused as ever. I'm extremely proud of her. I cannot wait to visit her at April/May. Something I look forward to.

I'm going to keep my first blog simple, although it doesn't mean there aren't anything bothering me in my life, nor in my head. But I do know, there are some things that are worth being stressed out about and some that aren't even worth even worrying about...

In case you don't know, I decided to have a book list from now on.. and I am starting to read the classics. I think it's important to read those books that have made history or help influences a reader's mind. I can learn a thing or two. But just a quick update, I am currently reading "The Cather in the Rye" by J.D. Salinger and so far its entertaining. I will post an update on it.